Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Top Secret

Sorry these are hard to see. The computer I am on isn't hooked up to work with our scanner.
Tiny little footprints

My favorite picture. The circle in the middle is the belly and to the right is the face. Above the face is his/her arm which was sweetly rubbing his/her head.

Profile shot. It looks like the baby is blowing bubbles but I am pretty sure that is arm/finger bones. Also the odd head shape is totally normal for this gestational age.

Ok this may be hard to see. There is a darker horizontal white line with one angled down from it. That is an arm bent at the elbow with the hand above and to the right. Baby is facing up, head on right side so I guess this is the left arm?

The gender of baby Sharp is "Top Secret". I had a doctor's appointment yesterday afternoon and they did a routine ultrasound. Brad was planning to come with me but unfortunately got stuck nearly 2 hours away on a job and couldn't make it. My biggest fear was finding out something was wrong and being all alone. But, Praise God, everything looks perfect! I had been saying we wouldn't find out the gender but as time neared, I was feeling more weak. My doctor even wrote on my chart last month not to tell me because I told him I was going back and forth on the issue. Don't get me wrong - I would LOVE to know more about the baby I am carrying but the thought of waiting it out and having a suprise on birth-day was exciting.
Since Brad was unable to be there, I decided to get the tech to write the gender down and seal it in an envelope for us so that if we wanted to know once he got home from work, we could find out. Luckily I got the nice tech and not the mean one we had at Will's 19 week ultrasound. (I guess it wasn't that lucky since I asked for her when I booked the appt and when I got there to confirm she would be performing the ultrasound and not the other girl) This lady was happy to oblige my requests. The tech looked at all the vital parts and did the measurements first, then told me to close my eyes while she looked at the 'other' parts. I suprised myself with how easily I kept my eyes closed and didn't try to peek once! She told me the baby was putting his/her hands between his/her legs at first like it didn't want us to look! I really enjoyed the whole ultrasound just looking at and talking to my little baby. Last time I saw him/her it was just a tiny little butterbean! This baby seemed very calm compared to Will and was content to smack its lips and rub its head. We discussed how it wasn't fair for the Dr. to know (he had previously told me he would) if the parents didn't and she assured me she didn't print "those" pictures out so my Dr. wouldn't even know what we were having. As soon as my Dr. walked in, he taunted me with "I know what you're having!" in a sing-song sort of way. This sounds childish, but that was just him. I really love my Dr. He is great! I told him I had an envelope in my purse and could find out if I wanted!
I carried the envelope in my purse for several hours until Brad and I were both home. I was not tempted even once to open it. Opening it without him just wouldn't be right. But once we got home I was dying to open it. Brad told me no! What I really wanted was for him to open it and read it to me. But he refused and I slightly pouted and told him he wasn't being fair. After all, this whole time he has said we could find out if I wanted, or we could let it be a suprise if I wanted. To me he was going back on his word! Tonight I asked him again if he wanted to open it and he sighed and told me we could if I wanted. So I thought about it for several minutes while he put Will to bed and decided that it wasn't right. We shouldn't open it unless both of us are excited about it. An hour later the envelope was given to a friend (who I KNOW won't open it) for safe keeping until the baby is born. I think it is pretty neat that we will have pictures and an educated guess as to the gender and will have the baby in our arms before we look at it. I am glad the envelope isn't in our house now because I would so want to open it!



Megan said...

So proud of you, but I don't think I would have made it!!

Lynn Gibbs said...

You just amaze me. Sigh...